Rosie e-mailed me with this link, as she thought I'd be interested (she was right!), http://litlove.wordpress.com/2010/11/21/students/. It's well worth a read.
It made me think about the pressure for me to do well on my Open University course. I mentioned the other evening that I shouldn't feel as pressured as when I was younger and doing school and college work, after all I am only doing this for myself... but as Mr H pointed out, we are our own toughest critics, and I reckon he is right.
Some of the points in LitLove's post rang a bell; for instance the feeling that 'everyone else' sails through the studying and essays, and retains all the information and can regurgitate it at will, either into an essay or into a conversation or at a tutorial, whereas sometimes my mind is a complete blank. And the worry about exams, although it is 7 months away.. I'm not so bad that I am doing past exam papers though!
It was also interesting about people being ashamed to admit that they need help; I can definitely relate to that. If I was getting really stuck it would take a lot to get me to approach the OU study help people; it would be akin to going to a debt management company. Having to admit that you can't cope with something that you have taken on yourself. ie. I got myself into this, I have to get myself out of it.
Hopefully I won't get to that stage, and if I can keep up the excitement and enthusiasm for my future path, rather than thinking "why am I doing this anyway?", that will surely help!
In the meantime here is a relaxing photo of where I am sitting right now, not doing any studying. Kind of working, on our 2011 application form design. I'm upstairs in the the left hand section of the long side facing you..